yes, today is my b’day. no celebration: nothing to celebrate.
my students have been ringing me since last nite greeting me: “happy birthday miss”. and i’ve been dully answered them: “thank you dear”.
yeah, i am a year older. some people i’ve met told me that your birthday is a reminder that you have lost another year of your predestined time allotment to live. in a sense they are correct. I, however, do not see my birthday in the same pessimistic manner.
i will never look forward to dying. I will never look gloomy on my birthday ( for bigger numbers when asked about my age , more wrinkles, more crow feet, more cellulite, sagging breasts, shrinking cheeks, missing teeth, arthritis, thinning hair, losing the seduction power of my lips, losing my curve, cloudy eyes and the list is on and on). I feel beautiful: it means I am beautiful. I feel young: definitely I am young. No question on that.
this day is my winning day. yes Death will ultimately come. But living my birthday today means i’ve won the negotiation with the Death. in other words, this year i have succeeded to make it agree to delay its ultimate visit.
yes i do not want to die (now) . Quoting Chairil Anwar, “I want to live for another thousand year”.
there are lots of projects i have in mind. there is this grand dream looming in my imagination. i have this obsession to make this world a better place.
all in all, happy birthday to me. see you again next birthday.
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June 18, 2009 at 1:17 pm
john
happy birthday missus!
how do you plan to make the world a better place? what’s the plan? where do i signup?
June 19, 2009 at 4:09 am
delvi
thank you thank you……
how to make this world a better place in Delvi’s way?
I am a teacher and I have this power to expose my students to various thoughts and teachings and books and blogs and literary works which will help them not to grow up as racist, chauvinist and sexists fellas.
I believe this world would be a better place with the minimum existence of people with quality i’ve mentioned above.
so do you want to join my class?
June 19, 2009 at 6:37 am
colson
Ah, sorry for my belated”Happy Birthday”. But it’s sincere. And don’t worry: being old is great. Getting there is an exciting journey. And arriving means living a pretty relaxed life; no extreme targets, no killing ambitions anymore. Enjoying small pleasures of life. Not being taken too serious by the mob, and not taken the mob serious anymore. A blessed state.
So once more: I congratulate you on moving one step on.
Though you did put a keris in my back by reminding me of “more wrinkles, more crow feet, more cellulite, sagging breasts, shrinking cheeks, missing teeth, arthritis, thinning hair”… well no sagging breasts in my case. But now you mentioned it, I realize the list is longer: vanishing short memory, a bulging belly, stiff limbs, restless nights, shrinking bladder etc
OMG!!!
June 19, 2009 at 7:04 am
delvi
noooo i dont want to get old!!!
June 20, 2009 at 1:50 pm
ewoon
Happy belated birthday, jagoan!
May The One And Only bless you mightily and grant your every good wish. See you soon.
June 21, 2009 at 11:07 pm
john
yeh i’ll sign up for ur class next semester : )
June 22, 2009 at 9:38 am
delvi
@you are most welcome john
@unlce ewoon: thank you very much.